It is funny how I lay my head down to sleep and all these great thoughts come flowing in. From ideas on my next album, melodies dancing around my head. Transcripts for my next group of meditation courses for the "Controlling Anxiety" which will be a 7 day course. To smacking a wall in writing my 2 novels and poems.
Now, many know being an author hitting a wall is normal. I can have days and weeks where the words just flow, then BAM Writers Block. Oh well it happens. I'll just switch gears. Time to get some of my music tracks finished, new ones made. Will be working on the meditation relax music tracks later today. This is one reason I like having many projects going on at one time. If I hit a wall on one project, I have another to go to. The poems, well those are all from the heart, so until and good loving experience or a shattering heart experience, I guess I am at a block there for now as well. I will just have to wait for inspiration to come smack me.
On top of all that, making time for my X family and their post. Plus getting some of my own post made and posted. I have noticed this fills my day without a doubt. The family we all have built on X is so caring and loving. They are there to support you with no questions. I wish this type of family on X existed back in the day. It would have helped me dealing with getting clean. Even out of them all, there is still that one special one. Now I did get a email from one reader, wondering who. I promised her I would not tell. Not till she is ready tell. I will keep my promises indubitably. So you will just have to wait. It was funny cause one thought I was making her up. Just to cope with 17 years of being single. I don't have to prove noting to anyone. When the time comes and she says it ok for others to know about us, then that day will come. I am pretty sure I will have a few poems as well that day. Knowing my heart will be flooded with love. HEHE
Until then. Like I said, I promised, so please stop bugging me on that subject. There now that, that is taken care of, LOL. Thats what I get for opening up comments on my post. I will never brake my promise, even as she reads this, she knows she is protected from those that is interested, even tho in reality its just 2 emails. I may actually get a DM from her making sure I didn't squeal. I assure you I have said nothing. No identifying markers anywhere in my post, in my poems or here on my blog. This right here people is building trust. When someone ask for privacy, you don't waver. She can trust me as I know we are both still building trust between us. Which I have to say now-a-days people don't know how to build..... Tho I am very proud and want to scream it from the roof tops, I will not till the right time. I can still get things off my chest. State things here while still keeping my promise to her without exposing her in any way. She knows who she is and thats all that matters. So I'll let your minds run and run. I will not cave.
Please note, if you click in to by books my online cover is not the same as my published books. I am in the process of updating the covers. Just FYI. I have a lot of work finalizing the music tracks as well as making new ones from scratch. A few meditation course need to be re-recorded as I noticed. I don't need to talk too softly into the mic. I can tell when I do, it will be fixed soon. Got my head phones all charged up to dive in to editing and making new music today. Mind is still swamped with at leas enough transcript for 3 or 4 courses. Then of course the mic comes out so I can turn them into voice, add some calming sound effects in the back ground. Then they will be ready to post here on this site as I listen over and over during the editing process then off it goes to be publish. Very exciting.
On top of all that I need to run to the store, then to my storage unit. I can't seem to find my electric razor charge plug. It's running out of juice. I am glade it had enough to get my whole face done. I didn't leave me half and half. LOL. I looked for hours yesterday, looking for that plug and my head phone charger cable. I found the Head Phone Charger but not the electric razor charger. I swear in a day of wireless electronics, we still have wires up the wazoo to charge these devices. Whats with that?
I need to make an appointment to see a dentist. I hate going to the dentist but as many know, my struggle from Vicodin addition, well yes thats correct. No matter how well I took care of my teeth the Vicodin addiction destroyed them quiet well to say the lease. I need to go get X-rays and see what can be done to fix the issues, I have been having as of late. No worries it's not bad or tooth loosing. Just some cavities that need to be nipped in the butt before they become a big problem.
Sleeping is still weird. I crashed out hard last night around 9pm I think but was up and ready for the day at 2am. Ended up till around 8 in the morning then as far as I could tell I crashed again for another 3 hours. I was hoping on getting a head start on a few projects but my body must have needed the rest.
Also for those that may or may not know April is coming. It's a bad month for me. I have been feeling the effects earlier than normal. Thats the month not only was I to marry Rochelle but also the month I lost Rochelle in the battle fields of Iraq. I normally put the ring I was to wear on to commemorate, but I m going to try to pass it this year. As I do need to move on. But it is hard as this would have been 16 years married and 21 years total together. Tho I miss her dearly Making April a very emotional month. I have been given a second chance in life with someone new. I have not to forgotten Rochelle but I also need to move forward in life. I was even told that due to the fact of Rochelle, I am the man I am today because of it. To never forget but to not let it rule my life either. I thank her for supporting me in this hard time and helping me open up, not only to my self but to her and the world through my Blog post. I have never met someone so caring n my life. I thank you........ from the bottom of my heart....
Oh forgot to mention. Having a blast getting the hang of this new AI Text Artwork app. How to describe what I want. Tho I takes 10-15 tries to get pretty close to what I want I, all those tries come up with awesome artwork. Those are updated daily on that part of my site here.