Today was a gloomy day. Not only cause of the clouds and snow. But for some reason I just don't know. felt disconnected from everyone. It was so bad I even updated my Living Will. The ups and downs from day to day have been tearing me down. I even scared a close friend of mine today with a text that she called to make sure I was ok and helped me through the dark hour. I am very honored to have such great friends that take time out of their lives to help me through. Even knowing they have issue too. This one Lady I am talking with online I think she is the one I have been waiting for, for so long. Been talking and talking day in and out. We meat about 4 months ago, I swear we could have been neighbors growing up. We click like best friends from the beginning. It is just weird that these type of connections happen but god has his will and we all have to go with the flow of life.